A look back, my milestones

OMG, I have been fascinated with the memories on Facebook where it reminds you of what you posted years ago. Some are just totally hilarious and some are sad.

Oregon Coast when I first said, "I feel free, I am free"

In line with my fascination with all the things, I have posted online were also my preoccupation with my old photos. I like looking at my pictures when I started transitioning and oh girl the makeup skills were elementary level and I zoomed some pictures to see how awful my eye shadow application was. I guess you have to start somewhere, right. I am not saying that my makeup application now is perfection. It is not.

One of my skinny bitch collective pictures

I have learned some techniques where I know what I needed to emphasize. For example, my cheekbones are fab, and the highlighter will give Cara Delavigne a run for her money. Knowing the contour of my face was just as important as understanding what tricks and techniques would work for me.

Curve-licious, I was starving myself here, lol

That is just makeup; I also looked at how my body was changing. The ups and downs with trying to look and feel healthy were hard when I started hormones. My appetite is still the same, I always say, I eat like a construction worker. What has changed was I was more conscious of what I put inside my body because I am also not doing Benjamin Button here. I am heading to the late 30's category. No, do not ask me how old I am.

Monterey, California

The transition process can create significant changes to one's body, and the timeline varies in terms of the result. Don't ask me when I started growing boobies because I will advise you to just look at my face. I also have noticed that my face has that softer look than before when my androgens were still raging. Loving what I see in the mirror, is what I am trying to say.

A photoshoot with my friend in Seattle, I managed to do my make up here.

On my look back, I also have seen how my fashion changed. When you are starting to transition, you have to keep an eye on your budget you know. Good thing I have a sister where I started trying to try her clothes first before sending them to her or sometimes if I like them, I will not send them to her. Those clothes became mine. Changing from male outfits to female clothes was hard. At one point, I had to do this gender-fluid style, but it was not sitting well with me. I want to be a fashion queen, and I am a woman.

I told you, I am a fashion queen!

The switch was enormous, and my brother was able to benefit from some of my clothes. I was aiming for something that will work for me and of course, glamour, too. Started buying shirts and skirts, then went to dresses and of course, the accessories and undergarments followed. That was how I started to grow my wardrobe until it exploded in 2020. Girl, I had to purge some for my sister so it is still a win-win for the two of us, though.

look at that hair, early stages, I know!

It was fun to look at those pictures and I certainly, have great memories of them. It was the time when I was trying to find answers and doing a lot of self inventories where I was questioning myself as to who I am. In all those pictures come travel and achievement. My trip to the Oregon coast, visit San Francisco, Paris trip, my grad school graduation at UBC and most of all time with friends and family who have been so supportive of me.

UBC Grad School Graduation

I cannot imagine my life without them, my awesome sister Clazier, showing me how to do my eyeliner and Christina with my perfect curls. My sister for showing me how to mix and match clothes. I am pro a now than her. My friends were also my creative and fashion director in all those pictures. I am truly grateful.

I told you, the curls! Thanks Bestie!

These memories are not only a look back to myself but also a look back to all the people who have always loved me from the very start.