Closing the chapter

No, I am not breaking up with someone. I am also not pregnant. Nor giving away any possessions because I have none except for my lovely dresses and shoes. Closing the chapter on this case was Cranbrook.

Remember, I gave you a little bit of a snippet of Cranbrook's nightmare. I am going to repeat. I am not upset with the city itself, but I am more disappointed with the events while; I was there. I know some of my friends will remind me that I did not lose. I gained, I won. Yes, I sure did. I learned a lot. I learned to cry every night like I was a little child. Kidding aside, I learned lots of things while I was in Cranbrook. Although, it was not to the full extent of my leadership capabilities. I have some take away especially the "what not to do's." I know my friend Anita would be so proud to hear me saying that phrase. I have learned that I can be that leader, and those feathers were ready for take-off. I may not land properly or have not landed in a safe harbour; I know those geared and ready feathers. I know I can create change.

Lounging in my little heaven in Cranbrook

Well, that workpiece has been over already since July. However, there were remnants of trauma that affected my brain. I could not let go of it. I have to maul things over, especially when a job offer presents to me. Again, these nagging bitches in my head telling me, "You will not be good enough, it will be Cranbrook Part 2". Certainly, it was a scary thought if you think about it wherein I should be trusting the process, as well as, trusting my capabilities. Sure, there was a hiccup. Also, I am asking the right questions now for any opportunities that come my way. The hesitation was huge, but one fierce friend told me, "onwards and upwards, know these people can throw a punch, but we won't say down." I am incorporating that as my daily mantra now.

You probably think I am crazy and, how am I pulling these things off- the energy, mental capacity and patience.

I did the packing of my stuff and the moving of my stuff two weeks ago. My life fits in a 10 x 10. Big thanks to my big jug of monster who has been so helpful since I moved to Cranbrook. The amount of work that we did was enormous. Imagine driving for 9-10 hours in a span of 48 hrs. Then, I did the second part of the trip this week with my very own Mahal 3.0. I drove alone last week to be able to get the remaining stuff in Cranbrook. Thank God that there were only the kitchen and bathroom stuff that I needed to take out. Even, then I had to throw at least 2-3 things such, as my lampshades. Also, a plastic drawer because my car was overloaded. It was overflowing. The final walkthrough happened then I was getting all these feelings of sadness. In all honesty, I love that apartment I had in Cranbrook. It was my little heaven. However, I need to let go of that sanctuary.

Rotary Park

If someone asks me if that was easy. My answer is no. I moved in April for the job and then moved again in October to get settled here in the valley. You probably think I am crazy and, how am I pulling these things off- the energy, mental capacity and patience. I am not sure. I am cranky when I am moving. The beast can come out, but I also wanted to maintain a positive attitude because when you close a chapter, you are opening a new one. You are creating room for more opportunities and blessings. At least that's how I see it. Plus, that's how I want to move forward.

I stopped by in Kelowna before coming back to the valley. Oh, those girls were so adorable. I had this weird feeling even though; I only lived in Cranbrook for a short time and, Kelowna is always my stop. I thought I was still be driving back in Southeastern BC. Nope, I was heading back to the valley. It was quite an accomplishment. I had many things in my head when I was doing the drive. I was thankful to be able to close that chapter. It only lasted six months, but I am so grateful. Some of the things I learned apart from knowing that I can be independent and can fight loneliness. I have said it earlier, the lessons learned were not the things I should be doing but the things "I should not be doing" which are a great takeaway as I continue to progress and find my footing back in my old stomping ground.

That balcony was awesome

As I continue my way back here to the valley, I want to say thank you. I find that gratefulness should be kept in my heart. Not because I am ending a journey but for the experiences and people.